Saturday, January 28, 2006


Tonight I am full. My tummy, mind and heart are full. Having just returned home from dinner with friends I am reflecting on my day, taking inventory of its events and my role in them. Did I accomplish what I had hoped to? How had I treated the people I encountered? Is there anything I said or did that I am not proud of?

I am blessed. Not for who or what I have, for all of that I am fortunate. I am blessed with the ability to acknowledge and treasure it all. Old friends, new friends, former lovers who are dear friends today, new tires, laughter, art, generous hugs, berry crumble, a warm comfortable bed and unconditional love. Yes, it was a good day and I can fall asleep with a content smile on my face.

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

All you can eat?

I was just watching the local evening news and this image caught my eye. The story was about a neighboring city enforcing its ban on free-standing signs for businesses. I'm not sure which I find more interesting: the fact that this Gentlemen's Club has a deli, or the fact that one can order a breakfast sandwich and beer with a salad!

I'm just happy that I have TiVo and able to capture the image and share it with you.

Tuesday, January 24, 2006


My friend Redge from SF sent this link to me today of a Daily Show segment about Gay Marriage that is so funny. Unfortunately, I missed the airing of this show and my friends Don & Robert, who are being interviewed, never bothered to tell me about it! Bad boys. Anyway, I'll berate them in person when they are here in April for their annual spring break visit with their adorable kids, Carmen & James.

Monday, January 23, 2006

Character Defects

Procrastination. Lack of delegation. Omission. Fear of not being desired. Fear of admitting fear! Self imposed expectations. Disrespect. Selfishness. Communication issues!! And the list goes on...

At this weeks meeting with my sponsor we talked about Step 6 of the 12 Step program I am working as part of my recovery. Basically, it is about being ready and willing for one's God, Higher Power, whatever, to remove our defects of character. This is a tough one. Making a list of my less than desirable characteristics isn't difficult, however, letting go of them is. Although negative, they are comfortable, and that's what is so hard to change and possibly give up. But that is the point of this step. It's just about being willing to address them, to understand and ultimately redirect them to a more positive and productive direction.

My time at the Betty Ford Center, and continued fellowship in AA, taught me that I don't have to feel judged or "less than" because of my behavior. I'm just a human being and not a perfect being. I am fortunate to have a great sponsor who isn't perfect either, and might even share some of those negative characteristics with me (although I'm not one to talk about other people... Oh no I'm not!!!). So, Mr. Sponsor, I think that I have finished my assignment. I have addressed these negative characteristics and am willing to understand and change them. Not all of them at this very moment, but we both know the biggest and baddest one and that is what I am starting with. Today. Because it affects almost all of the others.

And now I am putting this blog to bed. It's been a busy day and tomorrow will be as well.


Jim was visiting from Vegas this past weekend with what he says is his dog, Chooch, a Jack-a-Poo or something "creative" like that. I'm not really convinced that this creature is actually a dog, but rather the love-child product of a drunken night that Don King had with a crack ho in some alley. Jim truly believes that his Chooch is so ugly that he's automatically cute! I just don't think I'd go quite that far in describing it.

Oh wait, that isn't Chooch! Here he is...

Big Brother Brazil

I found this Shower Scene at the yummy blog, Made in Brazil. Check out the Black guy. I wonder what he did to get that dirty "down there"?!?!

The things people say

I was having dinner with Jim Saturday night and overheard this gem from a woman at the table next to us: "I prefer mono to pneumonia, actually."